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LJ Idol - Week 0 - Introduction

How do you introduce yourself to people, when you don't even know who you are? I guess that's the question I'm really still trying to figure out. Well, both who I am, and who I am to other people. Even a little while ago, I probably would have known how to answer this topic. But so much has changed in such a short amount of time, and I've realized so many things about myself, that I'm at somewhat of a loss. And no, I'm not going to explain everything in my life now, if you want to know, I guess you'll have to keep voting for me ;) I also hate online introductions, because they feel so rushed and forced. If we were meeting in real life, most of these things wouldn't come up for weeks, if not for months.

So I guess I'll just go with the basics for now, and see what happens.



*I'm Saskia, I'm 20, and I live on Ontario, Canada with two roommates, both of whom I went to college with.

*I'm an unemployed college drop-out. I started taking Journalism when I went to college at 17, hated it, and switched into a General Arts program, which I just got more and more dejected about when I realized that the only thing it led to was going to be more school, and I still had no idea what I wanted to do. So I slacked pretty badly, "finished" in April, and now I have no clue what I want to do with the rest of my life. Or even the next month.

*I'm totally self-conscious, especially about my body. Mostly because I don't know many people in RL with the same sort of body type as I have. All my friends that are aprox my height are either complete sticks, or have meat on their bones. I used to be a total stick in high school, and now I'm 6' tall, and "average" weight, and it makes clothes fit really strange on me, because it seems everything's made for either sticks or bigger girls. I hate it.

*I watch a lot of TV, and tend to ramble a lot of someone makes the mistake of asking me about a show I watch. Which usually ends with me feeling like a bit of a dolt, but I love TV and movies. It's the one thing I've always been passionate about. So when people get me started, I have trouble stopping.

*I quit smoking in August/September because I got an ulcer and oh god did it hurt to smoke. Although I will say I'm lucky. I had no withdrawal symptoms, which was nice. I will say though, when I get really stressed or upset I still want one, but I feel it's more out of habit than the addiction.

*I'm a fan of body modification. I'm in the process of stretching my ears, they're currently at 4g and being pains in my ass. I have a tattoo on my shoulder for my grandmother, and a tattoo on my wrist that says "fragile but strong enough" from Megan McCauley's song Fragile. I want to get *something* on my hip, but I don't know what. I also want to get the Seal of Rassilon somewhere, but I haven't figured out where it would look best.

*I miss dying my hair all sorts of wacky colours.

*I try and be PC and sometimes I fail horribly. God knows I've ended up on sf_drama a time or two for saying something stupid. But I try. And I'm learning. But when and where I grew up, no one ever got called out for saying sexist things, or racist things, or even transphobic things. And I wish when I'd started saying things like "That's so gay" that someone had slapped some sense into me, because I feel terrible about it now, even though I was as young as I was, and just didn't know better. So if I say something, and you've taken offense to it, please let me know, preferably politely.

*I play WoW, and I'm trying desperately to level to 80 on my main character before the xpac comes out in December. I only started in August, so it's been an interesting journey.

*I've become a lot more shy in person in the last few years and I find it really hard to make new friends, or even just to hang out with more than one or two of my friends at a time. It's starting to bleed over into my online life, which is unfortunate, because it leaves me not commenting on a lot of entries for fear of sounding stupid and having people just think I'm an idiot.

*I have serious issues with people blowing me off and ignoring me. As well as lying to me. And cheating on SOs. These are hot button topics with me, and I tend to lecture, particularly about the last one. I have very little respect for cheaters, or the person they're cheating WITH. (Which makes watching Single Father really awks for me. That storyline needs to be over. Soon.)

*I participated in Idol last year, and failed epically. I ended up getting eliminated due to missing the deadline for an entry. I don't want to go out like that this year, because that was just shameful.

*I'm seriously considering attempting NaNoWriMo again this year (for the 5th time), but given that I have no plot ideas, that's probably not going to happen. I would love to be a published writer, but I don't have the discipline to sit and write and plot and figure things out. That's why I used to do online RPing, which to be honest I quite miss.

*This season I'm hoping to do sort of mixed entries, with text and photography, but that all hinges on my being able to find the battery charger for my good camera. Or my digital camera itself, as it seems to have grown legs and run off. Maybe I'll do the occasional youtube rant instead.

So in closing, have some pictures! Some taken BY me, some just OF me.


Wee Me!


Getting piss hammed in March and bounding around on our lawn.


Halloween last year with my friend Ang.


The contents of mine and ultrasexified's fridge at one point in college.


My first tattoo

And DA has refused to load for me all day, so...that's about it.

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jenandbronze
Oct. 29th, 2010 02:45 am (UTC)
I don't remember you last year, but I hope this time you will go further through Idol. I look forward to reading more entries from you.

Even though I dropped out of high school and graduated college, the path for me isn't where I am headed, but I am slowly finding where I should be, somewhat.

Congrats on the no smoking! Not an easy thing to do!
butterbuns
Oct. 30th, 2010 09:22 pm (UTC)
You probably wouldn't, I was actually out pretty damn early.

Yeah, I wanted to take a year OFF after high school, got told no way in hell, so I had to go to college, and it made me really resent being there and it was just a ball of bad.

Haha thanks! Though I'll be honest, it has been pretty easy. I put down my pack and was like 'no more' and haven't touched one since, and I live with smokers.